I did not start writing the blog with an intention to have readers or followers. Just something prompted me to write when I could not find a person who was interested in my boring stories. But when I look back at some of the old posts, I could see a hidden interest to have some anonymous readers. I could feel the conflicting thoughts struggling to get past each other. I want someone to read the post and have a chat through comments; yet I do not want others to know my personal stuff.
I do not want to go public yet I want some followers. Interesting dilemma!!
If I think about it, I do not have anything interesting to keep the readers entertained and educate them with intellectual arguments. My blogs are more like a chit chat with a neighbor; plain vanilla conversations. Perhaps, that's why my husband does not want to have any conversation with me other than politics or excel sheets. Probably, he is right now wondering why am I not interested in his car discussions or share the passion to write VBA codes but expect him to understand my 'feelings', which is incomprehensible to him. Well, I am just another 'drama queen' to him. It was not like he pretended to be interested in my topics when we were dating, maybe I was just too excited to notice this boring detail :)
Let me see what can I do to get past this boredom...
1. Travel- Not worth it given the way he feels about the expenses after each trip and the silent treatment period after heated argument
2. Home Décor- Not worth it given the way I get penalized for every penny (my decorations are neither too expensive nor too cheap) spent in the upcoming years)
3. Gardening- The fresh blossoms refreshes my neighbors but the consequences in our home drowns me in depression.
4. Invite guests- History suggests not to take a chance. 8 out of 10 times, the plan will get cancelled after a silly argument.
5. Visit family- I take the blame here. I can't stand superficial relatives whom I can't rely on.
6. Visit my friends- In his dictionary, my friends are geeks and now why is he being brutally punished for no reason :)
7. Visit his friends- Only thing that seems to be working....thank god his friends are 'NORMAL'
The last option is my only entertainment now...that helps me from becoming a crazy person or a depressed loser.
I do not want to go public yet I want some followers. Interesting dilemma!!
If I think about it, I do not have anything interesting to keep the readers entertained and educate them with intellectual arguments. My blogs are more like a chit chat with a neighbor; plain vanilla conversations. Perhaps, that's why my husband does not want to have any conversation with me other than politics or excel sheets. Probably, he is right now wondering why am I not interested in his car discussions or share the passion to write VBA codes but expect him to understand my 'feelings', which is incomprehensible to him. Well, I am just another 'drama queen' to him. It was not like he pretended to be interested in my topics when we were dating, maybe I was just too excited to notice this boring detail :)
Let me see what can I do to get past this boredom...
1. Travel- Not worth it given the way he feels about the expenses after each trip and the silent treatment period after heated argument
2. Home Décor- Not worth it given the way I get penalized for every penny (my decorations are neither too expensive nor too cheap) spent in the upcoming years)
3. Gardening- The fresh blossoms refreshes my neighbors but the consequences in our home drowns me in depression.
4. Invite guests- History suggests not to take a chance. 8 out of 10 times, the plan will get cancelled after a silly argument.
5. Visit family- I take the blame here. I can't stand superficial relatives whom I can't rely on.
6. Visit my friends- In his dictionary, my friends are geeks and now why is he being brutally punished for no reason :)
7. Visit his friends- Only thing that seems to be working....thank god his friends are 'NORMAL'
The last option is my only entertainment now...that helps me from becoming a crazy person or a depressed loser.
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