I received a call from my college roommate yesterday after a real long time...at least that's how three year gap feels like. We were so close that nothing was a secret between us..well..that's how it was with our other two roommates as well. But with Sheela, it was different. We used to argue most of the time but never left each other in the time of need. It all changed when she got engaged after which never heard from her. She just went AWOL for no apparent reason and I gave up after like thirty+ emails and online messages to her. She sent an email a week before her wedding that she is getting married. The initial shock was so intense that I never replied back to that email or sent her any wishes on her wedding day. Then she had a baby, which I learnt through my another friend a week later. In spite of her lack of response, I sent wishes for which I never got a response.
I thought it's over until I received that call yesterday from her. I still cannot say how I felt that moment to learn she is just 2.5 hours from my place and is planning to live here for at least another couple of years. This is like finding an oasis after a real long search for the 'right' friend in US and the fading charm of my marriage. I wanted to fight with her if she ever called me back but I could not. All I want is to learn what happened in her life in the past two years and why did she mysteriously disappear from my life.
She is back as a mommy now and I don't know whether we can still get the same intimacy back. Will her presence fill the emptiness in my heart at least temporarily? Or will it be disillusioning like my marriage? Can this friendship help me rediscover myself, fill me with hope and happiness?
